Words

Words,

Words,

Where for art thou fucking words?



Once words spilled from my mouth

Like coffee beans on a counter,

Like ice caps into oceans,

Like excuses from a banker.


Once I was inspired

By people, by objects, by events, by day, by night,

By an eyelash on a forefinger,

By the colours in a light.


Once I had notebooks filled with words

Each one was written, not with ink, but with pride:

My words were my talent, my future, my ‘thing’,

My way to express what I felt inside.


Once I thought I was a poet (and a decent one at that)

So I cast my words to the wind,

To be shredded by a howling indifference

That left me completely chagrined.


I could never be a poet, they said.

I didn’t speak in complex abstracts or enlightened symbols

Or have a thousand different meanings

To every word I wrote.


I could never be a poet, they said.

I’m not for feminism, against communism,

Fighting racism, facing sexism,

Losing to ageism, preaching anti-clericalism.


I could never be a poet, they said.

I’m not a philosopher or a lesbian,

Not suicidal or foreign,

Neither fought in a war nor fallen in love.


The words left me after that:

Too ashamed of their own normality and regularity.

For a while I returned to the rational, the literal:

Reality.


They had no choice but to return:

My future depends on my words.

I knew I must throw my words to the wind

And have them soar like the birds.


It was not easy.

I was critical, unrhymed, tried to be what I was not.

I wrote pages and pages

But it all went to pot.


I scolded and seethed,

My words trembled with fright

I threw down my pen

And clenched my eyes tight.


Now I had anger,

Now I was oppressed,

Now I had a purpose,

Now I had to contest.


I am not Shakespeare;

I am not Blake.

My words are not written

For society’s sake!


I write from a feeling

That grows from inside

Unruly, barbaric,

Deep and untied.


Do not try to control it

Do not try to dictate

Do not try to conform it

For it will only stagnate.



Throw wood on my fire,

Fructify my seed

And I’ll prove me a poet,

My words shall succeed

get your personality type

Beberapa waktu lalu saya sempat membaca mengenai test MBTI secara online. MBTI atau Myers-Briggs Type Indicator sendiri adalah sebuah tes kepribadian yang didesain untuk membantu seorang individu untuk mengidentifikasi pribadi miliknya. Indikator dari tes ini dikembangkan oleh Katharine Cook Briggs dan putrinya, Isabel Briggs ketika perang dunia II terjadi. Indikator tersebut melanjutkan teori Carl Jung tentang Psychological Types. MBTI sendiri konon memiliki hasil yang sangat akurat dan sangat bermanfaat untuk pengembangan karir, konseling, maupun dunia akademis dan yang baru saya ketahui (rekomendasi dari dosen) bahwa MBTI ini juga dapat dijadikan salah satu referensi untuk pembuatan karakter tokoh. Dalam menciptakan suatu tokoh fiktif, kita dapat menciptakan karakter berdasarkan tipe-tipe kepribadian yang ada di MBTI.

Karena tergoda dan anjuran dari dosen saya untuk mempelajari MBTI , saya pun kemudian mencoba melakukan assesmen kepribadian dengan metode MBTI di mypersonality. Dan hasilnya saya termasuk ke dalam type ISFJ, seperti yang tergambar dalam profil berikut:

Akan tetapi karena masih penasaran, saya pun kemudian mencoba melakukan test MBTI lagi di alamat yang berbeda. Awalnya saya mencoba melakukan test MBTI lagi di similarminds, dan hasilnya ternyata hasilnya tak berubah!!!. Saya tergolong kedalam tipe ISFJ, seperti yang tergambar dalam profil dibawah:

Jung Test Results

Introverted (I) 67.74% Extroverted (E) 32.26%
Sensing (S) 71.43% Intuitive (N) 28.57%
Feeling (F) 53.13% Thinking (T) 46.88%
Judging (J) 71.88% Perceiving (P) 28.13%

ISFJ - "Conservator". Desires to be of service and to minister to individual needs - very loyal. 13.8% of total population.

Free Jung Personality Test (similar to Myers-Briggs/MBTI)

ISFJ sendiri dalam mypersonality digambarkan sebagai berikut: ISFJ - The "Defender"-->ISFJs are traditional, loyal, quiet and kind. They are very sensitive to other people's needs because they are very observant. They have rich inner thoughts and emotions. They value stability and cultural norms. They are very adept at giving attention to detail. They do not seek positions of authority.

Sedangkan dalam human-metric indonesia, ENTJ digambarkan sebagai personal yang tenang, ramah dan teliti, Bekerja untuk memenuhi kewajiban.Memberikan stabilitas dalam bekerja dan proyek. Hati-hati dan akurat. Minat mereka biasanya bukan hal2 tehnis. Dapat bersabar dengan detil, setia, konsiderasi tinggi, perhatian pada perasaan orang lain. Very sensitive to the feelings of others, mmm if more assertive may be better kale ya..

Itulah sekilas mengenai hasil MBTI saya. Jika anda tertarik untuk memahami dan bermain-main dengan MBTI anda dapat mengklik link-link diatas... Selamat mencoba...